I don't want this to sound too ranty but I just wanted to get this off my chest. I can't do the jojo animation anymore, not because i don't want to but because i'm limited when it comes to software. I don't have the money for a proper video editer, and free ones won't work anymore. Plus I've been using Clip studio to animate it on, without realizing it wasn't build for the length of animation I want to make, so it just crashes. It's honestly a bit embarrassing, I kept saying I was working on it and working on it, feeling proud of myself for trying this, just for it never to come. All because I wanted to jump head first into something I wanted to do but just ended up falling on my face.
I've decided to just give up with the project, I can't salvage it now and I'd rather just move forward than just dwelling on this. I want to really work on my art, instead of trying to over achieve or not working on anything because I self deprecate myself too much. I just tend to get so insecure about my work, and it keeps me from wanting to draw at all, especially when it comes to original stuff.
I'm going to try to break that habit and just work on what makes me happy. I want to draw me and Riddle's dumb dnd characters, and make weird character designs, and start a comic with her, and so that's what i'm going to do. I'm going to stop beating myself up and just, put all of the stuff I really want to out in the open.
I'm sorry if this is a bit awkward to read, maybe nobody will read this but that's ok, this was more of something I just needed to say to myself.